“Go and make disciples of all nations baptizing them in the name of the Father, Son and Holy Spirit.  Teach them to observe all things that I have commanded you.  And remember, I am with you always, to the end of the age.” - Matthew 28:19-20

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Reflections on a Bad Show

I can get so angry at God and myself when I perceive failure in certain things: my performing, parenting, being a provider.  I say I want to know God better, but in the end, there's still too many times I want to be my god.  I suck at it, of course, which only makes me angrier still. "Let it go," I tell myself. "I surrender all," I sing; "Take my life," I pray.  Until I get embarressed by a blown trick in a show, or I can't fix a broken lawn mower, or a daughter's broken heart.  Then I go right back to thinking I should be the omnipotent one, I should be the morally perfect one, I shouldn't fail.

On the eighth day, I created myself in the image of God.  But a poor reflection of the Great I Am am I.

We're told that it's God's kindness that leads us to repentance, yet I still fall back on self criticism and working harder to turn around the messes I make, the sins I commit (or worse, the ones  I believe.) So, perhaps to know God better require more failure in the same way thirst helps us see the value of cold water with a new intensity. After all, it was the prodigal son who was brought into the feast, not the faithful, self reliant one.  

If God's whole point in taking on the form a baby in an insignificant town in the Roman Empire was to save us from our sins, why do I believe I can't or won't  sin (Though oh so rarely outwardly, and oh so often in my thoughts and attitudes.)  His kindness leads us to repentance; He rejoices in the repentance of a sinner; He knows we are merely dust, not Rocks of Gibraltar.  

And the ironic, seemingly illogical truth is, my closest times with God are the times I come broken before Him, knowing that I am not enough, and knowing that I don't have to be; I can't be; I'm not SUPPOSED to be.  

But He is. 

So if I really want what I've been praying for- to know Gow better - perhaps it starts with knowing myself better as I stand imperfect in His presence.  And perhaps, although I tremble at the thought, it will take more poor performances, more broken lawn mowers, more times when I am not enough when I try to rescue the people I love the most, to get to that point.

If this is so - and even if it's not -God I need more of You. Flood me with your grace.  Even when I fight it.

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